It wasn't the way i pictured it to be. Maybe i'm thinking too much in the wrong direction. Maybe it's self-deception but not that it makes much of a difference. There was something in the chat with wj that really made me come to realise something. I overlooked the importance of one really really trivial point.

Dad gave me a lift to CMPB in the morning. Had to drag the fat one up with me 'cos he had some npcc stuff on in the morning too. The guys who were going for the checkup were mainly jc students. I felt kinda shitty wearing my house tee when all i saw were shirts from vj, sa and ac. Well, most of them seemed pretty stuck up so i didn't really bother going to make friends with any of them.

The whole process was efficient. Not really something i expected but somewhat FUN. Started off with a photoshoot wearing the office uniform. Not bad but the photographer kept asking me to tilt my head into position that i felt like a total idiot who cannot distinguish turn and tilt. Dammit. Next up was the medical station. Here, we had to collect our piss in some small plastic container and put a colour coded paper into it. Nothing much but yeah. Pretty cool. Got pricked on my right middle finger for a blood check and i thought it was the end of all the unexpected bleeding. Who knew that a container which collects 2/3 of a small test tube of blood awaited everyone. i was like WTH la! That medic dude who collected my blood sample was like going "Are you (still) with me?" repeatedly la. Lol! Dental was alright. X rays were fun, esp the body one. Had to press our chests against some machine. Lol. I was damned stunned to see Shaun sir. He actually helped me to do the ECG or whatever. He seems more sane now. Worst part of the day was the m18 part. Shit man. Had to stand naked in front of the doc. Man. It was WEIRD. Pes A.

Did some work in school with some chatting sessions in between. I'm lucky. Headed for Pan Pac after meeting them. Though i forced the thoughts away, they kept coming back. Shit. I HATE to think so much. She only opened up after we got to marina and was pretty hilarious with her misgivings about SOME places. Snuck up to the upper floors on Pan Pac with the beautiful night view of the city.

Thought alot on the way back. This incessant thinking has gotta stop. But because of it, something from the past came back to nudge me. "Your expections of a relationship and your partner changes over time. What you may like now may not be something you'll look forward to in future". It's a mistake.

gone